im wrong..Fairy Tales really dun exists..

Fate is dam cruel, im deeply in love with her.. but yet i cant be with her. even if im with her, im jus sharing her heart with another guy.. is it worth it for me? i dono.. i know i need her, i know i love her alot and i know i wanna be with her alot, but reality jus make it impossible!! Dam Fuck Up!! Shld i jus give up waiting for her and move on? or shld i wait for her to tell me she love me? Being with her for 4.5yrs.. ended jus becos of another guy's appearance after i went oversea.. is it worth it for me?? All i wan is to be with her.. is it that hard?.. ARGHHH!! Why cant i jus stop thinking of her??!! It Affected my life! im in a very confused status.. better stop here b4 my tears shed down..