somehow..i felt empty..

days past..its almost coming to a mth.. im still feeling empty..i miss the day we skate togther, eat together, hv fun together..i wan back the old days..but after this incident..i find that i didnt really treAT her very well.. its true that i love her alot but.. i know myself..i got no much patiance, no much time to accompany her etc..its really my fault..that why rite now i dun blame her anymore for leaving me for a better guy.. somehow i regrets too.. but its too late.. recently still cant slp well..countless sleepless nite is torturing me!! Downing liquor to put myself to slp everyday..is not what i wan.. i wanna be happy..yet i feel like shedding tears.. if time really heals..why cant i go back to my normal life??? i guess im not that strong after all..physically maybe i am..but mentally im really not. hw can i forget her?? i dono.. this is a obstruction for my progression.. guess its too early le..got to get some slp...zzZZ